we are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful about what we pretend to be....

tak taula apa yang saya rasa sekarang ni..tapi setiap kali dengar lagu ungu tu mesti saya sedih..macam2 yang saya fikirkan and apa yang saya fikirkan tu kadang2 buat saya menangis...mungkin Allah sedang duga saya and nak betulkan diri saya apa yang tak betul..tapi masalahnya saya pun tak tau apa yang saya salah...bak kata kak no..kalau kita tak.................sampai bila pun perangai tak berubah..iyeke?? bole ke jadi macam tu..maybe pendapat dia camtu..tapi bagi saya..kesalahan tu kite yang cari sendiri and it could keep on repeating coz nobody yang tegur..sbb tu la kot...ntahla tapi saya sendiri pun tak tau apa yang saya rasa sekarang ni..rasa semua saya nak..semua nak yang terbaik..tapi tercapai ke semua tuh..maybe bole kot kalu saya usaha..pandai bagi masa..tak ikutkan perasaan..and banyakkan guna otak and kurangkan kate " ha bole kot".."ha iye betul"..i guess i have to be more critical not only accept the fact...be more no rather than yes yes and yesssss................

1st assignment...lalalala...

I felt so happy yesterday!!

Yesterday was the time buat assignment dengan ishu...dengan jaja of course la..hehehe tapi happy sangat..we did the assignment at the PSZ ( Perpustakaan Sultanah Zanariah aka Peti Sejuk Zanariah)...hehehe..damn cold there....started our disscussion at 9 and finished around 1..then after zuhur we had our lunch at anjung at Pulai..yummy...i had ikan kembung ( i-shu cakap ikan KEMBANG) bakar, jaja ikan pari bakar and i-shu ikan kembung masak asam...eat eat eat talk talk laugh laugh laugh..itulah keja kitorang..

mmm something happened..on our way back from pulai to beli goreng pisang..ada satu kereta kancil putih macam menyondol kereta jaja..hilang akal agaknya..sian jaja cuak pulak..rupernya foreigner..hrmmm sometimes they are brainless...actually we should respect each other tapi foreigner dekat utm ni macam nak kite je menyembah dia...we all malaysian students always obey to the rules..tapi diorang suke2 je buat ape yang dorang nak..macam tak patut je..tapi kalau dah nature dorang macam tu kite pun tak taula nak buat ape..lagi satu..bau..nauzubillah..muka lawa hensem tapi..sorry..you stink!! huhuhu..ha lupe plak..before tu we ngadued(past tense mengadu..hei rosak betul bahasa) dekat pak guard...tak taula ape tindakan dia..lepas balik beli goreng pisang hantar ishu balik and jaja datang bilik i...we watched THE PROPOSAL...hehehe..

i will miss jaja and ishu so much..

these are photos we took..i-shu made me feel so lesbian..huhuu

UNGU SURGAMU

Segala yang ada dalam hidupku
Kusadari semua milikMu
Ku hanya hambaMu yang berlumur dosa

Tunjukkan aku jalan lurusMu
Untuk menggapai SurgaMu
Terangiku dalam setiap langkah hidupku

Karena…
Kutahu…
Hanya Engkau…
Tuhanku…

Reff :

Allahu Akbar
Allah Maha Besar
Ku memujaMu di setiap waktu

Hanyalah padaMu
Tempatku berteduh
Memohon ridho dan ampunanMu
Tunjukkan aku jalan lurusMu
Untuk menggapai SurgaMu
Terangiku dalam setiap langkah hidupku

Karena…
Kutahu…
Hanya Engkau…
Tuhanku…

Back To Reff :

Allahu Akbar
Allah Maha Besar
KumemujaMu di setiap waktu

Hanyalah kepadaMu
Tempatku berteduh
Memohon ridho dan ampunanMu

Allahu Akbar
Allah Maha Besar
KumemujaMu di Setiap Waktu

p/s : i'm touched with this song...Allah Maha Besar Hanya kpdMu tempat ku berteduh ku mohon redha dan ampunMu

1 st meeting..

today is the first meeting with my supervisor..we discussed on some elements which should be added into my psm..no wonder she looked different at the first glance i saw her..she just lost her mother about 3 weeks ago...oh i was speechless...my heart was a little bit trembling..she told me that today is the only day she starts all the things she had left...she didn't tell me much about it and keep it on her straight face..but i know deep inside her heart is full of mourning...

after meeting her..i told myself that one day i will face the same things like her..so to me..be good to my parents, family, friends and teachers and those people around me... we might not know when is the time will come and what happen to us in future..just be good to everybody and you will not feel regret if something bad happen to them...

sofia..my chicky niece..heheh

This is sofia..she is only three and half years old ( iye kot..x surela)..she is very active, talkative but a little bit moody...

sofia loves to listen to siti nurhaliza..atu wanita..eat pekdonalds..and drinks a lot of milo tak...

sofia..cak wawa miss you so much..

an evening with kak yong...

Date : 19 dec 2009
Time : 2 pm - 5pm
venue : Jusco Taman U

Kak yong came over to JB to meet her friends and her beloved Azwan..Thanks to kak yong coz had time to meet me too...It was raining cats and dogs on that day but when we reach Jusco it was only drizzling..i was absolutely starving coz i was at PSZ from morning..reading thinking surfing and dreaming were my activities at PSZ for the whole morning..hehehe...i was worried about my psm but i dunno where to start...huhuu..

kak yong and i shared a lot of stories..friends, family, works, study and the love life...kak yong always luckier than me..but actually. .each person deserve everything he or she should deserve because Allah is fair for His hamba...and now what i could see, she have all her wants in life and i still working and praying for all must get in my life....suddenly i could not hide my tears to drop bacause of some words from a person whom i respect and admire most...she said that " erm dia tu tak taula............. ......................................................Ya Allah sampai hati cakap macam tu..sedihnya...but i could not stop people from talking about me, they could say anything that they wanted...it really hurts....but i wish one day that i will prove that what she said is something that beyond her concern and do...i cried so much when i reach my room..cried cried and cried...and i told myself that don't be so down..my life is faithed by Allah and He knows what is the best for me....huhuu

enough with the misery....

we ate cakes macaroni curry mee and drinks cofee...wah bestnye..tapi kan ada pakcik kedai kopi tu cam belagak jer..erm biarlah..thank you kak yong i really had a good time...next station..william at Kelana Jaya..heheh

final year project

assalamualaikum..

tomorrow is wednesday, 21st dec 2003..will be the first meeting with my supervisor..i do not prepare much for tomorrow's meeting since i still transcribing the data...i wasted my 3 days holiday with sitting in front of my laptop, facebooking...ooo

erm apparently what will i tell her are much on the comments from the examiner...major comments from the examiner were on data collecting and literature review...i loved their comments and really made me learn something that i missed out before..

i wish i my supervisor will help me a lot and be nicer to me..and from my side..i wish i could be better in completing my final year project...all i want for this semester are to get the dean list, score A for all subjects and graduate with a medal around my neck...mak bak family and friends..forgive me for all my mishaps..and pray for my success...